Dear, Unknown

I'm becoming afraid of you. I don't know what to do. I can't leave you, won't leave you. I love you. I need you. I so incredibly afraid that I'm going to lose him to you though. I couldn't stand for that either, not when you have given me so many insights to him. I don't understand what you are doing, or why you're even here. I would never have been this alive without you, but I'm starting to wonder if your coming is tempting fate. Sometimes I'm so ecstatic that you found me, but other times I... wish you had never come. I don't want to continue to live in these alternate worlds. I know I'll lose him. I can't lose him. I can't live without him. Please, try to understand. Please try to help me from within.