Hidding

Why do I suddenly become so full of myself sometimes? Now I remember why I enjoyed being depressed, I wasn't so conceited. I did it today on the phone, and it bothers me so much.

Also, another flaw that I've noticed is how I'll plan to have a face to face encounter with someone, and I'll plan the whole thing out, including my attitude, but then when it actually happens I'll act completely different. This also bothers me.

It's like I have no self control.

I have noticed that these things only happen when I'm talking to some one and I feel pressured, or when I'm in a situation that stresses me out. Even if theirs not much reason for me to be uncomfortable, and even if I want to be there, it still happens sometimes.

At least I have this blog. I'm so happy I kept it from over the summer, it holds so many memories. And everything in it's the truth! It's amazing, like I've kept a memory chip of all my true thoughts and feelings. I also love the way it shows how I've matured, even if I do have so far to go.