"I Lurve You!"

I HATE running.
With the biggest fucking passion in the world.
No lie.

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He's okay. I'm not going to break up with him. It's not worth it. I wouldn't be okay with it afterwords. I just needed to chill out for a while. Breath about it all.

Still bugs me
SO MUCH
that he likes him. Can't believe it. He's so OPEN about it all with me.
I don't feel like his girlfriend, I feel like his friend who he uses to vent to.
All he ever vents about is him.
Ronnie
He loves him...
not me...
live with it.
Live in the lie.

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I had a lot of fun today. Spending time with them was amazing. And I love my new piercing. I'm so glad they were there for it. It really made all the difference.
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My brother.
So nice to be able to breath the word out
with peace in mind
instead of stress
or lust
or hate
or jealousy
or pain.
Never again will there be pain.
Never.
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I feel like he's... god, I can't even say it.
`Cause, I mean, he doesn't even seem physically attracted to me.
Never touches me at all.
Just hugs me goodnight.
Says "lurve you!"

Shut up you beautiful freak.
Just...



be honest with the world...

and maybe even...

yourself.

Can't handle this for too long.
Tell myself that now, but watch me never end this when it should be ended.

Because I never know when to stop.