Something New

I haven't seen Christopher in a very long time. I guess he'll always sleep inside of me. I think he's frozen in the back of me somewhere. Maybe someday I'll crack the ice and get him out.

I still love her.

And of course my Zachery, I still love you. As Always.

I have changed.
I can't feel my own heart anymore.
I hate it.
It makes me sick. I know I use to feel it all. I can remember that it was wonderful. I've become addicted to the pain though, and have lost the love. I enjoy hurting other people, being a tease, pulling them in and makeing them thing that it'll all work out. Sure, you can leave your loveing girlfriend for me. It'll all be okay. I'll love you, someday.

Sure I will.

First I should figure out how to love, and not just be addicted to the pain.

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You taste like heaven
but God knows you're built for sin.