Fix This

I've never written a note directly to any one in my life. I just realized that.

So, I feel like I'm a lot better. I had convinced myself of that, and was even slightly excited at the thought of seeing him by accident on my way off the bus, but then when I did see him, I automatically averted my eyes and started mentally freaking out for no apparent reason.

The only thing I can relate the feelings and actions exhibited at that second to are those of which I showed to Laura over those few months. This realization scares me very badly. I refuse to treat him like that, ever.

He said hello. He cares. I've finally gotten that into my head. I just need to figure myself out from here on out. I'm not sure what's gotten me into this mind set.

I feel like in fighting with myself.

He's done nothing wrong.

What's wrong with me?!

*sigh*

I will work on this. I swear to you Christopher. I'll try and stop waking you up. Even if I don't understand why you sleep so much....