Unlikelly (Stay With Me)

Rereading I have realized I am not as good of a writer as I had though. He's right, I am amateur. I would delete it, but that would go against everything this represents.

I wish I had someone to hold.
It's all I've been able to think about all day...
Fantasizing...
is only fun for a small amount of time.
Small at least when you consider the length of life.
I don't like pretending like tonight either. It just didn't feel right.

Why do I suddenly feel like crying?
I have never feared it before, but I am starting to be deathly afraid of becoming like you. I never thought I would reach this point. Never thought it was even an option. I don't want my friends to worry about me that way we do you. Ever.

It has just occurred to me that this is how you have felt the whole time. You really didn't want us to worry, did you? I'm so sorry.

(Although, for the record, I have never regretted telling. I never will. I feel, in a small way, I have saved you, even if I am wrong. I don't believe I could ever admit such an accomplishment to myself.

I can only hope...you will do the same for me, when needed? If needed... please, I don't think I can deal with them again. I will trust you with my life, as I have my heart. I will try desperately not to cause you to have to make this decision. )

It's not even that I don't want life anymore, I'm not sure exactly what it is. I just have this urge...

Sticking myself with needles... will suffice.
Because everything in Moms cabinet taste horrid, and I don't like the way it made me feel.

_________

Pressing me up against the counter and blowing hot air onto my lips-wonderful
Sneaking back into the theater for one last hug-priceless
Your firm hold on my waist-The Most Beautiful Explicit I've Ever Experienced

And yet...you were there.
I never though you would wait for me
much less send me home wrapped in love
Forever, I have decided that I will always have you-The Unmistakable Love,
-The Unexpected Love
-I Have Never Experienced Anything Better

I never dreamed something like you could exist.
I never would have believe something like you did exist.
And if I had, I would of traded my soul to be able to call something like you my own.
But you didn't make me trade anything.

You have never ask anything of me
And you have most certainly never taken anything from me
Never have you turned me away for ignorance
Only taught me life's lessons
As only more that a true friend would
As only a _______.

In all honesty,
Amelia