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You said you wouldn't leave me, no matter what I wanted.
I wonder if I can push you away.
Shove you into the dirt and kick you until you bleed.

It seems to be what you enjoy.

Let's see what the world looks like when I we both realize that
I really don't love you anymore.

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I see now that I was overlooking all the things I really hate about you.
I'm a hypocrite, I realize this, but it doesn't change facts.

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Why does it hurt still every time you mention her?
She was the only thing you ever gave me to hate with you.
I was young, and confused, and you left an impression with her that I will never be able to remold.
I'm so disappointed in myself.
And that feeling of disappointment is the strongest I've had all week,
even if it only lasted for a second,
and is now no more that a memory.

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How could I have let this happen?